Jealousy/Submission/Desire (nikki)

Jealousy/Submission/Desire

It starts as a twinge
A realization
He did that
Not with me
With her
A twinge
That flows down to my belly
Expands
Dark and black
Threatens to erupt through the top of my head
Anger
Hurt
Jealousy
He did that
Not with me
With her
The pain washes through me
I want to flee
I want to hit
I want to scream
But I am His slave
I close my eyes
He wants this
It is for Him
This is His desire
His joy
His girl
I am also His girl
I have chosen this
I let it flow out of me
Let the submission descend like a blanket
Calm
Warm
Take me
Center me
Hold me
Show me that I can
And I do
I listen
I watch
I accept
I take it
Like a blow from his belt
Like His cock in my throat
Like His fist in my ass
I take it
And I feel the humiliation of it
The submission
The obedience
I am His girl
I take it
The familiar warmth
Spreads out froom my core
My cunt
Opening wet, hot
Desire
Washing over me
I am His girl
I take it
I love it
I am His girl
I am owned
This is what I do

I love being owned (nikki)

I love being owned

Anxiety
Worry
I let them go
I can move on
Not turn them over and over in my mind
I make mistakes
I confess them
They are over
I can move on
Not turn them over and over in my mind
I have choices
I give them to Him
He makes up His mind
I can move on
Not turn them over and over in my mind
I have goals
I disclose them
He sets tasks for me
I can move on
Do what needs to be done
Not worry it over and over in my mind
I am selfish
I give my obedience to him
He commands me to obey
I put him first
I can move on
Not worry it over and over in my mind
He takes me whole
He takes pride in me
He looks at me with hunger
He uses me in joy and in pain
He calms me and centers me
He makes me a better person
I love being owned

Ceremony Poem (Maryam Davies)

I am your Slave of Love,
Chain me to your bed,
Hands so tightly up above,
Loath my fragile body red.
I'm here to accept all you say,
All your thoughts and troubles,
Even though from me you turn away,
When my blood curdles and bubbles.
I once spoke of love,
Truly only the love I give to you,
Down my throat my fist has been shoved,
It's over, it's done, theres nothing left for me to do.
Turn me upside down,
Shake away my emotions,
Toss far away this crown,
My apathy could fill an ocean.
I am your Slave Of Love,
You are my only antidote,
I am your Slave Of Love,
Yet all I wish is that you choke. (me)

ceremony day (Maryam Davies)

Lowered eyes
Humbled spirit
The slave dropped to the ground
And said . . . .

"Awake,
and in sleep,
In Life,
and when death speaks my name

I feign to be shackled to your blackness.
To serve at your feet.
To massage the kinks under your crown.
To dry the summer sweat from the nape of your neck
with cool subtle breezes whirling through my lips.

Awake,
and in sleep,
In life,
and when death speaks my name

I will plead with you, my dusky Master
to guide me
along your slopes, low plains
and dangerous curves.
My soul's purpose is to learn
your body -- my cartography.

Awake,
and in sleep,
In life,
and when death speaks my name

I will drink the tears that drip
from the hills of your cheeks
if they shall come.
I will sip from your valley
to quench my thirst,
replenish my energy,
only to strengthen my will
to serve you.

Open Letter To the Family of Master Durn Trilling

ATTN: Durn Trilling's family

RE: Durn Trilling's Praises

I met your Master Durn Trilling when I was still very new in SL. He intrigued me, as well as helped me understand and gain knowledge, and items, for my future in any master/slave relationship I may choose to be in. Yes, he persued, ( but not as much as I had in the beginning) and yet, left me to fully decide which way I would choose to go....whether it be with him or not. for this I will always have a deep and abiding respect for him.

Your Master Trilling is truly a wise and patient man. He has tutored me in many things in SL, and yes, even persuing me to join your wonderful family. He is a very persuasive and impressive man on many levels!! I do have to tell you that I have been more than tempted, on more than one occassion, to submit fully to this incredible specimen of a man!!! For every time I turn around he reveals yet another incredible facet of his love and devotion to you, his family!! I find this very appealing.

But alas, I have proven to be a very stubborn and arrogant submissive. I realize that it seems the two do not belong together, and you may be correct. As loving, patient and persuasive as your Master Trilling is, I find myself fighting against the very real feelings I could have for his mind, body and soul!! For I do not reject the idea of being a part of your loving family for anything he has done........for it is my own obstinence and arrogance that holds me back! I realize that these very qualities may be my downfall as a true submissive. I have already had a Mistress tell me that I should consider being a Dom. I don't think have it in me to totally control, as I cannot submit my life to total control within a "family" atmosphere.

He shared with me the wonderful poem that his #1 had written. I have to say that, yes, it stirred up feelings of why I believe myself to be submissive. For I too love that feeling of being
"...brought to new highs
left floating and dark
only sensation exists
magnified"
I hope this to be a compliment to the writer, for you did stir me.....I smile and blush at the same time.

I close this wanting to tell all of you that I am envious, and intrigued by his love for you all, and that I believe all of you to be very lucky to have such an extraordinary Master in him! I thank him deeply for his friendship and guidance he has offered to me. I have found it to be priceless and have tried to pass on his knowledge and philanthropy to other new submissives, as best I can, still being relatively new myself.

As a final note, I want to address this to your Master and bow deeply to him and thank him for everything I have gleaned from just being in his presence.......bowing.

Thank you for your time all of you......

Leoness Catteneo